244. March 1st…Wow…

“Beams of Canopy Light” 2010

“Everybody got it wrong. I said I was into porn again, not born again.” – Billy Idol

a new week…a new month….and all that is new seems to be ready to pop from the cocoon of winter….and explode in just no time…..spray us with a little spring…..that’s what I’m talking about….

I’ve been reflecting on a few things lately…how they evolved…turned out and are or are not today…..I’ve wondered what the message was in each event that I either got or didn’t get…and if I got it…did it alter me in a way…while if I didn’t get it…am I doomed to repeat the same….I’ve thought of the “Whys”….and come up with the answers…for the same “Whys”….and wether they are the correct answer or not…I guess doesn’t really matter…I think the necessary part of reflection….is finding some answer that makes the previous actions palatable….make certain God will forgive us…. he or she will forgive us…mom and dad will forgive us….but like carrying a lucky rabbits foot…encrusted with 4 leaf clovers and blessed by the Pope himself…reflection…needs a sense of committment as well….something that shouts to the world…..that the actions that were you then are no longer you now…and you like everyone has the ability to change your modus operendi….given the critical mass in life becomes critical enough….change happens when there is no more room there….where we are at…and the outcome is no longer acceptable….some reflection requires seeing that chamber of horrors…before the action takes over….I’d hate to be the guy at the high school reunion that everyone thinks….”Hasn’t changed a bit….still exactly the same”….that’s scary……

too much of anything is not a good thing…and as the Tao says “Whatever you look for you’ll find”…..so reflection to me is like drinking tomato beers….only when I really really…..want one….and not more than once or twice a month…that way I’m not sitting at home…holding the TV remote control….never changing the channel…because afterall…”What’s the use”…..sort of thinking just could take me over…and then the point of reflection becomes the method of self destruction…..I can certainly find enough about me to reflect upon…for a long long time….and if I want to find it…I will…out of a 30 day month….2 days…maybe three days…I’ll put on the …”Don’t bother me I’m introspective” ….T-shirt…solve most of the universal problems that directly affect my world and me…..come up with the answers to some age-old questions…I’ve contemplated…year after year….hope that the next set of question have a more Jeopardy type format…and move on…..until next time….

reflection…introspection…looking inside…whatever you want to call it…is a healthy part of being a healthy person…and is a necessary part of self discovery…..and personal momentum….but to be crippled by an inordinate amount of self reflection…not only snatches away the opportunity to make good solid changes in a life…but it’s kind of like wearing tie dyed clothes….everyday of the week…….

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One thought on “244. March 1st…Wow…

  1. “I will…out of a 30 day month….2 days…maybe three days…I’ll put on the …”Don’t bother me I’m introspective” ….T-shirt”

    Ok. That’s perfect.

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