328. June 3rd…Today is….Egg Day and Tattoo Day….want to know what I’m having for breakfast and doing….oh…around 5 oclock….???

“Dying to Meet You” 2009

“He lives the poetry he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realize” – Oscar Wilde

today is a “go day”….one of those days where it seems as though there is more to get done than there are hours in the day….and I have to say I really like being under the gun periodically…..there is something about being pushed past the daily routine….into another part of how things get done….

changes are a slow-moving process…yet when the results begin to emerge faster than anticipated….signs of the changes begin to show…maybe not in a smaller waist line…or baggier pants…..there is a great deal of confidence that builds from those small efforts…and given the continuation of the changes….the level of confidence and self power emerges as well…..but we have to get there first….

I think that is what stops many of us from…getting exactly what we want…often we balk at the starting gate….standing there with the great idea in our hands…yet feeling perhaps the great idea is only great in our minds…and could never be great elsewhere…and once convinced it is great….we haven’t started running yet….perhaps we’ve looked at our list of excuses….those that determine what we’ve proven to ourselves in the past….that will probably be accurate for the present…and most likely for the future….so we run out of gas….shelve the great idea….before we start…I suppose…predetermining anything is qualifying an expectation….and it’s difficult to not have some expectation….live from a manic position and the expectation becomes  world domination with a ball of string and a pack of store-bought doughnuts….while the expectation from a depressed position becomes the  mantra  “What’s the use”….even from a healthy state of mind and some expectation arises that may or may not have validity….based on what we’ve done in the past…..

or maybe we don’t deserve the opportunity to excel….push our great ideas forward….maybe instead we should not even have the ability to come up with the idea…live in a box somewhere and eat dirt …who knows…I think we deserve what we deserve…nebulous at that may sound…it’s really a backing in sort of thing……the outcome of anything is going to be directly proportionate to the effort we put into it…and there should never be a surprise at the end when the result is minimal….chances are the effort was minimal as well….

finally succeeding seems to be an opportunity to create failure…so why invest the time…effort….money….energy into something you probably are going to fail at anyway….and in the remote chance that you do succeed….get to that place you want…you’re probably going to screw it up as well…end up worse than where you started….sound similar to a dialogue you’ve ever had…..I know I’ve had this conversation with me many more times than not….sometimes we are afraid of success…getting exactly what we want….and for what ever reason….who cares…I mean really….who cares if dad locked you in the closet…made you eat mushy apples and wear grandma’s cooking apron…..and that’s the reason you fear success….everybody has a story…..and every story is as valid and as real as the next…..it is how the story either propels us or detains us….you know it’s detention for life…..or doing what you want…..I know which one sounds most appealing to me…..I really believe success is a state of mind…..like anything it takes practice to be good at it…and maybe realizing small successes…do create larger success is a way of making success part of the everyday vocabulary…..

Today is……Cancer Survivors Day…and to those of you who have survived this and made your life a success….I applaud you….

success comes in many ways…..

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