458. December 17th… “There” really does require “Here” first…unless of course you’re already “There”…then “Here is…old business and well…good for you…

“Nightmare#15” 2010

“If you can’t explain it simply, you don’t understand it well enough.”  Albert Einstein

it snowed last night…as usual…the city was at a standstill…until a 2 hour delay on life was lifted…quite incredible….but this is the way it is here in the high desert….

the desert is such a unique place…unlike anything else…there is truly something about sitting in the middle of nowhere…staring into the middle of nowhere a hundred miles away…and nothing is moving …the vacancy…stillness and utter quiet is sometimes a bit overwhelming…yet has a peaceful quality amidst the harshness and unforgiving nature of the landscape…many times driving on the back roads…I’ve come across the remnants of an old stone and adobe house….and wondered..why they stopped here….what was it about this particular place that said “This is it”…

and I think it is really about finding some spot and in some cases any spot to put it all down…make a place for ourselves…something that has a familiarity but offers enough of a mystery to keep it all rolling in some direction…

I know for me lately the question has arisen…”is there more than this”…instantly followed by the statement…”There has to be more than this”..and somedays..”This” is as clear as crystal…while other days…I’m look at a solid black stone…wondering why the discrepency…the change in vision…I think it all has to do with arrival points…places that taking a deep breath is possible….a place where time is available to plan it out to some degree…make some decisions that don’t necessarily have a great deal of adhesive to them….but enough…so  they become the life line…for a few seconds until a better grip is fixed…the process continued…

I was discussing with a friend the “why” people don’t go get what they want…and I’d love to find some statistic of those who are truly doing what they want to be doing and those who are not…sure there are a myriad of reason…excuses…etc that can fill the blank so somehow the meal becomes digestable….perhaps even tasty…but what stops…stalls…never starts…the process…and instead the settling becomes the process of living…that great reason for waking up in the morning to watch the exact same movie all over again…

maybe we just don’t know what we want to be doing…and that’s the problem…perhaps all of this minutia…is the building of the enlightened…the foundational element that one day we stand atop a giant mound of what was us…candy wrappers…blood pressure meds…the 7,300 empty bottle of gin…discarded trojans …Ford hubcaps….the spirit of those who didn’t make it this far….on the journey…all of the wonder dogs and cats named Rex and Stinger…films of every thing we did…all of the bad ideas…the doors that we pulled when we should have been pushing…a photograph of every slice of pizza we ever ate….and a book of lies we told…there at summit…it all makes sense…and the new pile begins…the one that starts making up for it all…and we know…

so perhaps this is optional..,keep it simple…reasonable and as truthful as possible…and storming the garrison…doesn’t require big ladders…just a slight step over the wall…no plastic surgery is required…love lifts your wings…staying out of the bad places has never been easier…the manual is in big print…and all of  Lao Tzu make sense…the first read…….

“It seems, in fact, as though the second half of a man’s life is made up of nothing, but the habits he has accumulated during the first half.”  Fyodor Dostoevsky

 

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One thought on “458. December 17th… “There” really does require “Here” first…unless of course you’re already “There”…then “Here is…old business and well…good for you…

  1. AWESOME post, Robert. The very last bit floors me. “Love lifts your wings” is the most beautiful thing I’ve heard today, and it’s been an incredible day.

    Thank you so much for all of your posts. I’ve traveled miles of black~ribbon highway and your posts have kept me company. New things to see, a different way of looking at a thing.

    Thank you, jewel.

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