July…was a Duck….

Last Day of the Month, Thoughts from the "Tinman"

“My life, I realize suddenly, is July. Childhood is June, and old age is August,  but here it is, July, and my life, this year, is July inside of July.”

July

“July Ducks”, 2013, Robert Redus

July has always seemed like one of the renegade months….one of the unpredictable 12…I came up with Zenday one Sunday in July…and really it had nothing to do with me…it was all about the hypnotic influence the month had over me….like a car or a girl…or a crunchy peanut butter sandwich with  mountains of red plum jelly….when I was 16…stuff that was so important….the pin pokes….that really ruled my world in a….whirlwind sort of fashion…

Now when I think of July…I think of cooking on griddles…pouring clear liquid from one thing to another…sketchy things…things that if I ever had to explain them…it would be easier to play Mumbley Peg with a dozen or so…extra fingers on both of my hands…. July is also the reprieve month…the time where I think regularly… ‘Nothing can last for ever’….staring skyward…and wondering…the what’s and where’s….But I love July….too….enough so that the end of the month is being ejected from the safety of a revolving door…if you know what I mean….

I learned a great deal more than 10 things this month…but here they are…the….Diez Cosas….

  1. I don’t care for stir fried bitter melon
  2. Mixed welll….there are still some lumps….
  3. There are a lot of people out there buying a lot of junk to fill their spaces…rather than exploring their spaces…for a lot of junk that should go…
  4. Tasting a flavor of ice cream I would never eat at an ice cream store…then and only then do I make a decision about which flavor I want…
  5. Anybody’s recommendation is as good as anybody else’s….
  6. Inserts should always come with a new pair of shoes…
  7. There is a time in the very early…every morning between 5-5:15….I wake briefly and am most thankful for what I have…I think I smile a lot then….too
  8. Trendy and cool require a great deal of effort….money….and time….
  9. I am a fatalist with an existentialist filled center….
  10. I’ve never known anyone named Dewey or Melvin

So…..July turned out to be a duck here are a few facts about ducks….that make them special….

  • Ducks have no nerves or blood vessels….in their feet…
  • Ducks lay fewer eggs….beginning in JULY….
  • Ducks have three eyelids…

No wonder it was a good month….no blood vessels or nerves…fewer eggs and 3 eylids….Sweet Jesus…..

“I just love Chinese food. My favorite dish is number 27.”

7.1.13…The lasting effects and knowledge of June….2013

First Day of the Month, Last Day of the Month

cause I dont worry

“Cause I Don’t Worry” ©2013, Robert Redus

“I’m not out to convince anybody of anything.”

I’ve not revisited the “First of the Month”…honestly in a few months maybe even….well…over a year…in order for the first of the month to have some value…there must be a connection to the end of the previous month…don’t ask me why…but it just seems a sort of…”foot bone’s connected to the ankle bone”…sort of progression… I have to say in all honesty…I prefer writing about what I learned in the month just finished rather than…what I think I’m going to learn in the month…ahead…seems so cryptic…

well here is the…where I’ve been…in other words the gripping thoughts and the skinny for June 2013…the month that has led me to this morning of writing about…my expectations if you will…for July…

10 Things I learned in June:

  1. There are a lot of people who buy a lot of pretty pointless…stuff…
  2. Bee stings are much different from what I expected…
  3. There is always something that has to happen before that something that really matters happens…
  4. I’m completely and utterly done with thinking that #3 is true and has to occur…
  5. Writing is much more liberating than I remember…
  6. Israeli food is the same as Middle Eastern food..so I understand the conflict even less…
  7. At art shows…people generally ask the same…4 questions…and tell me the same…3 storie… about themselves…
  8. Success for me is finding someone who is equally as excited about selling my stuff as I am excited about making it…
  9. At 56 I don’t need/want excuses…
  10. Sometimes it is just easier to nod than to say anything….maybe utter a couple of “hmm’s” …but remain for the most part…quiet

So there you have it…June in a nutshell!

July is going to have to wait….I have 30 more days to see what transpires…

see you then…

“If you start by promising what you don’t even have yet, you’ll lose your desire  to work towards getting it.”

578. December 1st…The last day of the month…became the first day of the month…today…

First Day of the Month, Thoughts from the "Tinman"
“Square Holes” ©2011 Robert Redus

“If you hold a cat by the tail you learn things you cannot learn any other way.” – Mark Twain

so yesterday…November 30th…became today…December 1st….quickly…faster than I realized….

I don’t know if it is time that is making the difference or being more aware of the slower things these days…that seem to fill the space…but what ever it is…I am enjoying the journey…

November was a great month…and yes like every other month I learned/relearned a great deal more than I am able to write…

  1. “The important things are not things”
  2. Owning/Driving a VW Westfalia is like being in a club of people I don’t know at all….but waving to them when I see them…
  3. I don’t trust short bald men with whiny voices…who are trying to sell me something…
  4. everything narrows down more as it makes greater sense…
  5. I like hats…more than I ever thought I would…
  6. when it is too much about me and too much about you…it is far too much…
  7. really knowing when and why to give up or start something is as important as giving up…or starting…something…
  8. people can only be an exception…for a little while longer than they really are….
  9. I’ve always been  a student…
  10. repetition alters the process…greater than not…

Thanks November for a wonderful month of great things…that weren’t things at all….see you next year…

“Things should be made as simple as possible, but not any simpler.” – Albert Einstein

573. October 31, 2011…End of October…cud chewing….and all of that stuff

Last Day of the Month

“Descent” ©2011, Robert Redus

“You can’t be suspicious of a tree, or accuse a bird or a squirrel of subversion or challenge the ideology of a violet.” – Hal Borland

The last of anything sort of defines the first of something else… “how profound Robert” …you might be saying…well it’s only because I had oatmeal with flax seed and raisins…would be my guess…and I am feeling a little philosophical…this today…

October is one of my favorite months…it’s like a month with it’s own idea…a rogue month that has virtually no predictability other than the…unpredictable…October always keeps me guessing…I’ve worn a jacket and long pants with a wool hat and scarf…and I’ve worn shorts and a t-shirt….and prayed for cooler weather…all during the month…it has been hinting about fall and winter…yet has been hanging onto the last remnants of summer…the trees have tired…their green leaves drooped…heavy with a season…and now they are transforming into another magical…event…

October is like smoking pot to those who think that smoking pot is a “Gateway drug” and will lead to harder and more addictive drugs…October is the… “Gateway Month”…surely leading to November…December…etc…but with little or no possibilities of being anything other than…just plain spectacular…October…

I have always enjoyed October…like a good carnival ride….

as promised I am renaming the months of the year…and October’s new name for me is… “My second favorite carnival ride…with fries…and I still have a few tickets left…Month”

here is what I learned…in October…

  1. If it doesn’t end with the exclamation… “Hell Yes”…don’t do it
  2. Certain people have to be miserable to be happy…and always remain miserably happy…or happily miserable…but either seems pointless…
  3. The finite stuff has become more important…than not…
  4. 6.1 is much better than 7.3
  5. The first 5 minutes of anything is probably the most significant for understanding if there is any future with whomever or whatever is going on for those first 5 minutes…
  6. Cushioned gel shoe inserts are extremely underrated
  7. Sometimes good short-term projects become lifestyle….
  8. The less explaining necessary…the better it fits…
  9. Resolving “It” requires everybody involved wanting “It” to be resolved…
  10. The big picture matters…but it’s the small things that make the picture visible…

Thanks October you Gateway Month…what a great ride this was…

555. July 30… Hey it’s the “last day”… of another month…and what did I learn…or maybe already knew…

Last Day of the Month, Thoughts from the "Tinman"

“Peeking” ©2011Robert Redus

“Learning without thought is labor lost; thought without learning is perilous.” – Confucius

I’ve opted to return to a topic…I began thinking about how each month passes….while in the month so much is presented to me and I have a choice of either taking it in or not…with time hopefully comes change…better plans…certain things become a bit more clear…and July was no exception

July passed quickly…much of it I don’t remember…seems like a blur…yet in that passing the days set loose a great deal of information…much is priceless…

I enjoyed July…some things were solidified…others released…still others…swept away with no idea of their whereabouts….I came to conclusions…I learned a great deal…here  are some of the many things I learned….

  1. New Mexico is not a great place for me in summer
  2. It’s not what you do it’s the way that you do it.
  3. People don’t surprise me a great deal any more.
  4. Truth requires more effort than just saying what is true.
  5. Consistency may seem like a habit…but a lot sure gets done.
  6. You can’t ask for advice and then get pissed off because it’s not the advice you want to hear.
  7. Dental Health is much more important than we may every know
  8. Most people believe their own story…even if nobody else does.
  9. It’s all about how the numbers add up over 12 months.
  10. If you’re _______ with what you are doing and think you are ________….I believe you and I’m happy for you.

again July spread itself like a thick coat of crunchy peanut butter…and what I “learned”…I already knew…I think maybe the immortality has faded…the notion of what matters most is when my cup is filling…it’s with the stuff I want to fill it with…

I have on my the kitchen cabinet my “Manifesto” I wrote 2 years ago….it is more powerful now than ever before…

  • Do not waste any time on the…wrong people…the wrong endeavors…the wrong ideas
  • Go get what I want right now…as it may not be there when I think I’m ready for it
  • Look carefully at what presents itself…do not make the unacceptable…acceptable
  • Whatever I look for…I will find
  • Take time out of each day to smile and…laugh more

“Truth is so hard to tell, it sometimes needs fiction to make it plausible.” – Francis Bacon

 
 
 

463. December 31st…2010…The end of a year

Last Day of the Month

“My New Year’s Eve” 2010

“If you asked me for my New Year Resolution, it would be to find out who I am.” – Cyril Cusack

2010 is gone in a few hours….and what has transpired over the past 12 months have been bitter-sweet….

to say the year was incredible would be accurate…with incredible comes every facet possible…this year had satisfaction…dissatisfaction…acknowledging deep endless love with the loss of love…wonderful friendships that were solidified…while other friendships dissolved…understanding that sometime led to confusion…questions that had many answers…realities that were once chains…and became wings… memories that disappeared forever…while new events settled into place…some truths became lies…while some lies revealed themselves as true….impossible to move…left with a puff of breath…prison became paradise…and what was once pitch black gave way to the brightest light I’ve seen….

I learned more than I could write over the year…I discovered things I didn’t know existed…I found the possibilities endless…and learned to stop a little more each day…

I found we are all works in progress…and our job is…getting ourselves to be the very best person we can be…so when we share ourselves with others…our goodness…joy…happiness…understanding…love…compassion…forgiveness and truth…is a feel good tsunami of sorts…for anyone who steps in front of us….much like how the cream filling of a chocolate zinger…or how love grabs you…or the feeling of true bliss…closes our eyes for a second…and inside of us says…”Ahhhhh” long enough to remember what this is all about….

I hope for all of you 2011 brings to you what matters most….that you find clarity…happiness…joy…and all you are looking for….

be well…peaceful and safe….

“One forgives to the degree that one loves.” – Francois de La Rochefoucauld

 

423. September 30th…Another….September…down the drain…..

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“Not the Dream Job” 2010

“I believe there are more urgent and honorable occupations than the incomparable waste of time we call suffering.” – Sidonie Gabrielle Colette

I’ve always enjoyed September….it really seems like a month..all of its own…nothing even close to it….September has always reminded me of the color blue….and the smell of roses….I’ve liked September all of my life…..as everything is beginning to respond….and it seems this month…begins a change…the leaves get a slight tint of yellow…while others remain summertime green…the clouds have a September look to them…..thick and full from horizon to horizon…people are starting to tire…..get a little fat…the blues and reds fade…to olive and orange….the nights make me think of family…and best of all the light has become different….every second of each day….

I am more attuned in September…maybe because I know change hangs heavy….waiting to be picked…I think September is one of a few months…that I can taste the air and know there is a great deal on its way……

September went by quickly…..30 blinks and it seemed like it was ushering in October….sweeping its porch clean…retireing for another year…I will miss this month… yet have learned so much and am thankful I was here….

September opened my mind gave me much to ponder….here they are:

1.  I’d take a bowl of fruit over a piece of cake…..

2. Somethings take the same amount of effort but produce completely opposite results…

3. How I think the world around me sees me…may not be close to what it really sees….

4. When my actions are genuine and effortless the results don’t matter…

5.  Producing art does not have to be stationary….

6. Resignation gives me the greatest freedom and peace….I’ve had….

7. Being unforgiving makes certain the action is never forgotten

8. I enjoy having dinner outside in Fall….

9. Love sometimes is only a part of it…

10. There is an intrinsic…undeniable truth…I am no longer afraid of……

I am delighted that September was here and is on its way…..the cool mornings and the cat’s purrs closer to my ear will only get cooler  and much closer….

“There comes a time when autumn asks,”What have you been doing all summer?” – Unknown

399. August 31st…Last day of the Month…..

Last Day of the Month

“My Latest Nightmare” 2010

“I live on a one-way street that’s also a dead end. I’m not sure how I got there. ” – Steven Wright

so August ends today…I am glad for that not for any reason other than the days now start to yawn a bit more…the trees have lost a little of their green and tire from the heat….mornings are beginning crisp….the end of August makes me think of blankets…and 15 minutes more of sleep…and what the cool air of fall will feel like on my skin…I love August…but like a house guest that  overstays their welcome…but I love enough to say nothing…I am glad August has packed her things….she did leave the last of summer…in a jar on the bureau …it smells of rose…and jasmine…pine and freesia……

August is a motor revving month for me…a time I am ready to push the pedal down stick my head out of the window….and see how the wind feels on my face…the month taught me a great deal….

1.  sometimes getting from one place to another…doesn’t require moving from the original place at all…..

2. I like stray cats…but not when they think my backyard is theirs

3. Religious solicitors don’t believe soliciting religion door to door is …soliciting…..

4.  if I decide not to burn bridges…but the other person does…the bridge is still burnt…

5. certain things even if they are good for me are not good for me if I forget to take them in moderation…..

6. who and what I am is perfect for me….if I was somebody else…and met me…I’d want to be me instead of them….

7. accepting something for what it is….and truly accepting it….sort of takes the importance out of it….

8. a minute of quality far outweighs a day of mediocrity

9. some people suffer so those that don’t can really realize how blessed they are….

10. the only really important thing in life that matters are relationships…making the unimportant…important is the greatest disservice we can do to ourselves….

thank you August for a wonderful month…I will forget you soon…yet never completely…you are the doorway….I have always enjoyed passing through…..

375. July 31st….Last day of July 2010…..

Last Day of the Month

“The Quiet Time” 2010

“An artist is a creature driven by demons. He doesn’t know why they choose him and he’s usually too busy to wonder why.” – William Faulkner

The summer has driven through quickly this year…I look forward to Fall…. August is always the time I can feel Fall is but a few weeks….and know my favorite time of year will soon be around me…..

July was a good month…in many ways….it seems to me this month many things became apparent……revealed themselves and my discoveries were large and full of insight…..I experiemnted in July…tried some new thinking…..tried some new behaviors…..gained far more than I lost… stepped closer to a light I’ve always seen….amd know I am capable of bathing in….

Here is what I learned in July…2010….

1. The less I anticipate the more likely the truth becomes

2. I don’t really have to have a reason to want or not want to do anything… “just because”… is okay with me….

3. My expectations rarely ever align with what really is going to happen…or does

4. Talking to myself in accents and answering myself with very long elaborate answers in completely different accents is perfectly alright….

5. If I have to think too much or too hard about how I feel about something…I probably don’t need to know how I feel about it…

6. Everybody’s journey is a good one…..necessary….legitimate….and has value

7. Meeting doesn’t necessarily happen in the same place

8. After enough chicken….everything begins to taste like chicken….

9. If it’s important….we  do it ….talking about the unimportant things and trying to make them important….is a waste of energy…

10. I don’t need to wish for anything anymore

I have to say I will remember July as a rewarding month…I was able to solidify some decesions….make some crucial steps on the journey…July was like a wonderful fragrance….and I learned a great deal….

enjoy your day…..

350. June 30…Last Day of June…..

Last Day of the Month

“Heading Home” 2010

“Using words to describe magic is like using a screwdriver to cut roast beef”- Tom Robbins

again….another month ceases to exist…a month that held a great deal of information…volumes of topics to ponder….and some wind….and heat that has been a bit too much for my liking…afterall…it is summer….it is the desert…and I could expect nothing different….I’m fond of June…it is a middle month for me…there is rarely any guess-work to what will transpire in the month…other than the many magical factors and the unknowns…I like the nights….and the air early in the morning….though there is always a slight hint that a change is around the corner some where….and June in her lovely posture is paying little attention to anything other than the full sun….days and the cool evenings that welcome the night….I think June epitomizes a time of day called…La Madrugada…it clearly defines what that portion of the day….is…in a transitional sense….I trust your month was filled with wonderful things…..new insights and offered you some information that maybe made things in your life a bit easier….or perhaps more clear…..I know it certainly did for me…as with each month…I learned a great deal in the month of June….

Here is what I learned:

1. My health is absolutely….positively…the most important aspect of my life….

2. It doesn’t matter how corrupt a person might be…there are still people who like them….trust them and believe them….

3. Really deciding to do something is often the most difficult part of doing something..

4. I was designed for a very specific role and function…..the more I get that the easier it gets…..

5. Because I might think I am right…doesn’t neccissarily mean I am…

6. For the first time in my life I can say…..I perfer a bowl of blueberries, raspberries, blackberries, apples, bananas, and strawberries ….over a chocolate glazed doughnut…..

7. A good plan is essential….

8. Choice is my elemental responsibility and obligation each and every day….and allows me to create opportunity

9.  Holding onto something that has no value…takes away from the valuable things in my life……

10. Acknowledging the purpose of everything is what matters…after that….it can get hazy…..

June was a wonderful month….