470. January 10th…I am capable…therefore I shouldn’t….

Thoughts from the "Tinman"

“Contour” 2011

“Information: the negative reciprocal value of probability.” – Claude Shannon

I’m beginning to think…everything is either about redefining ourselves…or fundamentally fooling ourselves…

every situation we find ourselves in is…a). has the potential to be workable….or…b). has absolutely no potential to work…what so ever…and I find the idea that taking either of those situations and willing trying to make them opposing to their natural probability seems by far the most destructive…time wasting…futile effort one could pursue…

I don’t know if we deserve or are entitled to anything…yet we can make conscious decisions that will  allow our lives…to…remain the same…make it easier…or make it less easy…and difficult…and why we opt for the latter is voluntarily stepping out into traffic just because…we are capable of doing so…because we can…doesn’t always mean we should…and for every reason to do anything…there is one that is an equal and opposite reason not to do it…sort of emotional physics…

fooling ourselves really is all about being there everyday for the same grand opening and acting surprised…while knowing that it’s basically going to be about the same with an end result that sounds..smells and taste…just like the day before…where as redefining ourselves….maybe doesn’t make us any better or  right…but allows the scenery to change…as we too change…maybe take a look at what is and see if it still fits…

I think it is more of an evaluation process initially as it takes a different eye to step away from what we know for something we know is going to be different…we just don’t know what that is…until we’re on the move…but we know that we can’t stay here…and I’m pretty certain redefining ourselves is a direct result of Critical Mass…or…the minimal amount of something to produce a given effect…and a good dose of being in flux….otherwise we remain…continue to fool ourselves…

most everyone I know is in a process of remaking themselves…understanding more what they are about rather than what they are capable of…I think that place offers a great deal of space to think…see how it feels…test drive it a little…and if it needs to change…then perhaps it does…

I had to jump over a high chain link fence the other day to retrieve my keys….after the experience of planning my assault…where I was going to land…was I capable of an olympic dismount…and if so…were we talking 9.7’s across the board….the reality of the leap and the fiction I had put into place were grossly  different…yes I am capable of jumping a 7 foot chain link fence…and no it is not anything of beauty…but what I realized…I’m much more capable of carrying bolt cutters in my truck…and next time I find my keys on the other side of the locked gate…I’ll cut the chain….

“I’ve made an odd discovery. Every time I talk to a savant I feel quite sure that happiness is no longer a possibility. Yet when I talk with my gardener, I’m convinced of the opposite.” – Bertrand Russell