590. January 25, 2012….The real problem with…

Writings from the "Cuff'

"High Wires" ©Robert Redus,2012

“Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught.” – Oscar Wilde

Charles Osgood said, “There is no exception to the rule, that everyone wants to be an exception to the rule“…he is as right as it gets…each of us comes to the table with these great ideas…at some point or another…and really  more often than we realize…these great ideas…if we’d just think about them for a few days  before we burp them out like a thanksgiving belch…we’d hide ourselves in shame thinking that…”That” idea had any merit…and was doable…unless of course it’s doable… because we are who we are and we’re doing it….or not…

we either know everything or nothing…we have either done everything or done nothing…we are certain we’re going to do it but do it when the time is right….we either speak a bunch of languages or can’t talk to the drive up window microphone in complete sentences…we often profess when we should confess…our fragile delicate ego does not allow us to be anything but mostly right….and mostly all of the time….we can open businesses because we like what the business is about…and somehow think that the connection to liking the business somehow opens the portal to understanding P&L statements…financial forecasting…taxes and developing a good sound…workable business plan…oh and we have $63.00 in savings…when we still struggle with “Does business have a, ‘z’ in it somewhere?

we try to fill the soft spots with softer stuff…thinking it will work…

it all boils down to a simple question…to ask yourself

“AM I EXCITED EVERYDAY ABOUT WHAT I DO?”

if the answer was hesitant…or had a question mark at the end of it…was “Most of the time“…or “I have to think about this“…reread chapter 1 of your life…and  Hell Yeah

I have always believed that once I had all of the tools…both literally and figuartivly…and I knew clearly…WHAT I WANTED …(not to be confused with what I don’t want…as knowing what I don’t want does not mean I know what I want)…then I could accomplish anything…anywhere…anytime…

Here are the lists I made to get here today:

  1. “THINGS I REALLY WANT AND REALLY WANT TO BE  DOING”
  2. Decide what’s real…and unreal…My unreal… was going back to the university for an MFA to be a teacher at a university at 55 years old…I crossed that right off of the list….
  3. The Real Tools, (tangible)  I need…ex. laptop, video camera, Westfalia Camper Van…etc….
  4. The Real Tools I have…
  5. The Ether Tools, (smarts and skills) I need…ex. education,  business skills  , etc….
  6. The Ether Tools I have…
  7. Build the tool box..start the project(s)….and make sure  I start the projects long before I have the tools so I can keep adding the “Right” tools

there is something about working hard on an idea or project even if you have only part of the tools…as what we need usually arrives when we need it… “The harder/smarter we work…the luckier we become

Most of us…who are trying hard to be right or fill in the soft spots with softer stuff…are also probably working in the… “THE WHAT YOU ARE WILLING DO”… position rather than from the  “I CAN DO ANYTHING…ANYWHERE….ANYTIME”… place….

and spending far to much time on making certain every “i” is dotted and “t” crossed…might indicate an enormous suggestion….but bottom line… if it’s not “HELL YEAH“….well…..nothing else really matters….

“I’m not wise, but the beginning of wisdom is there; it’s like relaxing into – and an acceptance of – things.” – Tina Turner

499. March 1st… “Life is short, the art long.” Hippocrates ………..Really it is….

Art and my thoughts about being an artist

“My Backyard Mexico” ” 2011

“Abstainer: a weak person who yields to the temptation of denying himself a pleasure.” – Ambrose Bierce

I mean it required a clean white cloth to clean the soul….but somehow something has to get dirty to get something clean…..and it didn’t mater if they wore the clown mask and sang the fun songs…or if it was just a bunch of drunks…beating the shit out the guy dressed like a clown….it was going to be funny to someone somehow”

and so here we sit…

I was sure hoping a famous art gallery owner maybe one who owned a few galleries in New York…L.A. and Miami….was going to get into an automobile accident in front of my house on the…dead end street I live on…and her cell phone wasn’t working…so she’d have to come inside my house to call the police and 911…she’d then see my paintings…and I would be discovered….and everything would be…groovy…

there are obvious realizations that may often remain completely…obstructed and camouflaged  by choice….ease…denial…not wanting to see some level of truth…the “Situation”…and a myriad of other bs…lights that fuse of decision…yet nevertheless…the fuse has been lit…and hopefully…like any good cartoon…it is written on the side of the big round barrel of explosives…”TNT”….and the cartoon explosion will have words in it…”BOOM”….a mass of black smoke….and we get to walk away from it relatively unscathed…but emerge from the fire and smoke covered in soot…a cross shaped banaid on our forehead and our left arm in a sling…of course…smoke coming from our burned yet normally functioning body…and we appear a slight bit bewildered….shortly there after the literal light bulb illuminates above our still smoldering head…and a new and equally…obstructed…explosive plan begins to unfold….but this one’s gonna work….quathi wabbitt….

I came away the other evening…realizing that no matter what I want to paint…there is a natural pulse…a personality I paint from…I firmly believe every painting I have done…am currently working on or will do is nothing more than some version of  a self-portrait and until I somehow change self…if that is my desire…I will continue painting the way I do with a few glitches here and there…even change some things about mind to hand…hand moves brush type thinking…but that happens as it happens to me…and the everyday living stuff…

and do I want to paint like some of the artists I admire…I did…I don’t now…I’ve come to that place that I only want to explore what I’m doing when it comes to paint and building something…and outside of that…there is nothing that important…

a friend of mine made a very big decision about her work…the exploration of her work…and where it was going…her studio space…and overall a reconstruction of the model…it worked out…not exactly as she had thought it was going to…but better…that being said…the results of the actions too will be much better…

it takes a great deal of courage…to tell ourselves the truth about our work…and more often than not we are reluctant by the fragile tenuously balanced ego…there high above us….balancing precariously…between “not even close to stable” and “ready to crash”…worse is knowing and not acknowledging that…the work needs work…

as artists we have chosen a solitary sort of existence when it comes to the process…of making art…what better place to breed this idea of creativity…get together occasionally with those like…us…have a few cocktails…or better micro-brewed beer from Marble brewery…preferablly….”Citra”..and share the mind….the ideas…the stuff that makes it great…..

artists…we are the most fortunate people on the planet…we ARE groovy….

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” ~Dr. Seuss